LayOUt mY lYF

2008-05-12T21:59:00.007+08:00

ytd went out with ahyin and huili and we chatted alot! and gossiped alot too =x

so long never talk with huili already, so i enjoyed alot ytd :):)

we went to jec and then imm and back to jec again

today after school, went to jp fish&co with zoey chua that humber fucker! hahahahaha. the fish and chips is so not nice lor, maybe i dono how to appreaciate it. hahahaha. actually i intend to buy tongue stud but too ex already :( after that went home and slp zzz. just woke up so i come here to blog. byebye, i am off to msn already! some ppl complain already. BYE :]

人無法決定會為誰動心但至少可以決定放不放棄

loving you was my mistake cos i don't miss you at all. i don't i don't i don't miss you :D:D

2008-05-10T23:46:00.006+08:00

hi babe and dude!

i am so happy now because I GOT MY TATTOO ALREADY! i got a tattoo at my back, like finally sia -_- hahaha!

sorry, the tattoo cannot be exposed yet. but i will show you guys one day, don worry... wahahahahaha.

today after work went to bugis with yishi f**ker(hahaha) and ahyin. and i got my tattoo at the bugis street.... it took half an hour to do my tattoo. huh? is it painful? hahahah, you go and try then you will know, if you are someone who can't tolerate painful, then please don go and try. hahahaha :D:D

sorry,granny, mummy, daddy, brother, sisters and relative. but i really love my tattoo very much <3>

just took this picture with my baobei while we were waiting for 197. yishi that stupid kia su queen hai us to be the last one to get into the bus! yishi, please reflect on yourself har. hahahahaha

2008-05-09T20:49:00.004+08:00

nah~ auntie, now i show you what is hottie....

seriously i think mariah carey is, and her songs are super nice too! am i right?

so chio hor? hahahahahaha.

please visit http://laughwithyishi.blogspot.com because she said she got blog about me! wahahahahahaha :D:D

2008-05-07T21:50:00.003+08:00

somebody loves to call herself a hottie, actually i think that somebody is.... because hottie has 2 meaning. one is when ppl look at her bloody face, poeple will feel hot and feeling like punching her face. LOL :D

so which hottie is she? 8)

be humble lah, fucker _l_

2008-05-07T20:51:00.004+08:00

hahahahaha! chrysantheman advertisement. super funny.. by this lovely baby lim hui li. got a crazy unknown woman was laughing at the back so loudly and so scary. hahahahahhaha~

subway advertisment! laugh out loud...

hahahahahahahaha.. superduper funny zz thank you huili :D:D

2008-05-06T21:48:00.002+08:00

yishi gave me a birthday card, and it is so beautiful and makes me wanna cry!!!
thank you so much darling :D you make me so happy

2008-05-04T01:29:00.024+08:00

happy belated birthday to myself! now is 4may 1.30. one and a half hour ago was my birthday and i had a great and happy day! my lovely friends made me so happy and they gave me alot of surprises! i muack them

actually i am very tired and i want to sleep, but i know my lovely friends would want me to blog about today :):):) so here i come! ;)

today early in the morning i had work until afternoon and it was very tiring okay!? yawnnnnn. and finally after i knocked off, i rushed back home and bathed and then changed to my new clothe! :] i am a birthday girl who deserves to wear new clothe. after that, rushed down to bugis and meet my friends, zoey and yishi were so sweet! because i didn know how to get to the restaurant, so yishi and zoey came and fetched me. when i reached there, all of them sang me a birthday song loudly, i was so happy but yet very "pai seh" because there were so many people surrounding us also.... hahaha. after singing session, ate and ate and ate ;);) in the first place, all of them told me that they forgot to buy me present but i didn really mind, at least they all turn up today, it was more than enough..

after finished eating, ahyin surprised me with a present first, after that huili they all also.... i am happy, you know why? because they know i love pink so they bought me all pink colour stuffs. even my birthday cake also pink! :]:] awwwww... so chocolate of them! and they sang me birthday song again, hahahaha! very embarrasing leh, my dear friends! but you all really made me very very very very happy! thank you very much! for making my 18th birthday wonderful and memorable, charlene aka salei hearts all of you (:

i am wearing a new white dress, but the dress is too short for me (sorry, i am too tall :P) so the bottom is a purple stocking

after that we went to shop and walked around then happily homed! i had a great day today! thank god!!

huipin gave me a 7 zai too, and i am sure she'll be happy to see this

me and 7 zai which huipin gave me, it is so damn cute can!? zuzu, thank you! muack

and thank you for ppl who had wished me and i am so surprised that elaine was the first one to msg me, exactly at 12am. hahahaha

天空是绵绵的糖,就算塌下来又怎样 :D:D

爱很easy 很easy! so lets smile our hearts out girls :)

2008-05-02T20:21:00.012+08:00

today had fun day at my sweety rebecca house with yishi<3,>

i took alot of picture with yishi and i seriously i love playing with yishi and bullying her! she completes my life ! wahahahaha.

below is our scandal photos, LOL! enjoy 8)

yishi so guai de worZxx, ask her act what she act what :}

yishi说我整天伤她的心,她真的是一头猪来的,打是疼骂是爱. 我会像一个bodyguard每天保护你的,

我亲爱的朋友 (:(:(:

2008-05-01T19:23:00.003+08:00

today wake up in the early morning because i have work.
and i had a nightmare ytd, what's the nightmare about? sorry! secret =x

and when i woke up in the morning, i felt cold and hungry, and i really felt like crying.

哈哈!其实也没什么大不了,因为我是用水造的! ;D;D

2008-04-30T21:26:00.005+08:00

this is our friendship and it is so beautiful (:(:(:

thank you so much to serene for surprising me this. 7 zai... hohohoh. although she rmb wrongly my date of my birthday <3

panda eyes please go away please please PLEASE go away D:D:

bye, reader and happy advanced labour day :}:}:}

2008-04-28T20:36:00.004+08:00

smile smile SMILE (:(:(:

YISHI! gym tml okkayz? muacks :-*

2008-04-27T17:42:00.003+08:00

i am very tired, give me a break?

my dear diary, i am so sorry for neglecting you so much!

but... i am really very tired

life is stil beautiful,

so.... chin up and smile! my dear friend (:

i miss hongkong very much and my "cousin", ya. "cousin" hoho :]

2008-04-17T23:45:00.008+08:00

hahahahahaha! helloooooooooooooooo :D:D:D

i am back after so many days. just came back from work and i am soooooooooooooooooo tired! roarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. and school is alright but meaningless

this is a very very very very kuku photo. mie and huipin fren foreva de nehzx!! 8)8)

this is baobei yishi and me and i want to tell yishi that i love her so much lah, but she everytime diao me and ignore me =x LOL

yawn, so sleepy now! i want to sleep and tml there is sport day but who cares?

"tuddae he view moii frienddster de profile worzxzz. nd iie m sho emo fer de whole day nehzxx.. why he lyk dhat lehhs? make miee sho emo de lorrx. hate him tuhh core de lorzzx"

hahahahaha! this person is so stpuid and makes me laugh my ass out~ grow up lah, baby -_-

byeeeeeeeeeeeeee god blesses and many loves for you reader ! 8)

2008-04-13T22:30:00.002+08:00

HELLO. i am so happy today because there is a early release from my work. and i forgot to blog sth ytd.

THANK YOU SO MUCH TO YISHI,HUIPIN AND AHYIN FOR HELPING ME TO WORK YESTERDAY! muackssssssssssss :-* :-*
and thank you so much to rebecca, valerie, xiaoxuan, angrong and huili for coming as well. appreciated by me and i know you guys love me! i am so blessed 8)8)

2008-04-13T00:11:00.001+08:00

say hello to charlene. says:
yo
Zoeyyyyyyyyyyyyalaicopiedfromrockrollhero says:
yo
say hello to charlene. says:
how are you?
say hello to charlene. says:
long time no chat
Zoeyyyyyyyyyyyyalaicopiedfromrockrollhero says:
fine
Zoeyyyyyyyyyyyyalaicopiedfromrockrollhero says:
how are you ?
say hello to charlene. says:
i am fine
Zoeyyyyyyyyyyyyalaicopiedfromrockrollhero says:
i think u become more chio alr
say hello to charlene. says:
hmm. thanks worZxx... you also eh. look like a model
say hello to charlene. says:
can earn money already
Zoeyyyyyyyyyyyyalaicopiedfromrockrollhero says:
u too
Zoeyyyyyyyyyyyyalaicopiedfromrockrollhero says:
figure like 8
Zoeyyyyyyyyyyyyalaicopiedfromrockrollhero says:
i watching sky of love
say hello to charlene. says:
i know you want to be model is not bcos you want to be popular.
say hello to charlene. says:
is you want money
say hello to charlene. says:
right?
Zoeyyyyyyyyyyyyalaicopiedfromrockrollhero says:
haha
Zoeyyyyyyyyyyyyalaicopiedfromrockrollhero says:
ya i also want to becum air stewardess
say hello to charlene. says:
ya..... bcos you want money right?
Zoeyyyyyyyyyyyyalaicopiedfromrockrollhero says:
ya

what the hell...................... this is a lame and dumb msn conversation between us! how stupid it is -_-

2008-04-12T00:22:00.005+08:00

hie :DD

just came back from work. SO TIRED okay! now waiting for my hair to dry and waiting for my mother to online. i miss alwena <333333>

sch day is okay but boring........ prelim is coming soon! omg. can please someone wake me up? i am still in a holiday mood =/

this cute girl YINGSHAO. =)

school is boring!!! ROARRRRRRRRRRRRR ; O

PS. SORRY, i prefer cool and secretive guy =D ;D

2008-04-07T19:24:00.009+08:00

hie :D:D i will be only free today and the following days in next few weeks I WILL BE DAMN BUSY! hahahaha. sorry if i cannot update often but i will try my best to update !

busy working and working is damn tiring. but what to do? my bank acc is hungry and it needs me to feed money to survive -_-

ytd went to cck with val to get huili's birthday present and we took some neoprints! (: wth, the neoprint machine is very bloody lor. got alot of problems.... met her at 8.30 and went back home at 11.

let me upload some photos and vedios of rebecca's chalet :):):)

we were playing TUG-OF-WAR in the chalet! hahahahaha, the vedios are damn stupid and yishi kept laughing at the back! hahahahaha. and the team who lost had to kiss zoey...... thats why we played until so "hiong". hahahaha

okay lah, i shall end here............

bye. god blesses 8)8)

2008-04-03T21:08:00.004+08:00

helloooooooooooooo :D :D i am back after so many days
am very very busy recently and finally today i am free and i am here to update my blog! school is as boring as usual. exam is coming soon and i am still in holiday mood...... -_-

now msn-ing with mummy and ALWENA
mummy keep nagging and nagging and my beloved mum is so bhb =x

siman says: got anyone say your mummy pretty?
say hello to charlene. says: no.
siman says: are you sure girl ? :(
say hello to charlene. says: wah lao ehhhhhh.. you very thick skin!

ya! siman is my mummy...... -_-

alwena of today!!! :D :D :D
rebecca's chalet photo...... spot me spot me! :D:D:D

2008-03-30T21:07:00.003+08:00

charlene says: how are you? my baby?

alwena says: i am good!!

*charlene just sent you a nudgealwena says: jie jie please don disturb me, i am drinking water!!
sorry for being mad but i really love my baybee sister :]:]:]

ALWENA<3

2008-03-30T18:10:00.007+08:00

my darling fangying is in macau now! omg......

hmm, chalet was okay, but i didn stay over night for both nights so i've missed quite alot of fun ;] hahahaha. okay, nth much to say, just post some random photos 8)8)8)^this two photos was taken during cny at rebecca's hse.^this one was taken during xmas eve :)^zoey,yvonne,ahying :)

2008-03-28T13:19:00.005+08:00

HAPPYHAPPY birthday to rebecca !!
i loveeeeeeeee youuuuuuuu always. hope you will be happy to see my post!

rebecca is a very sweet and caring girl, and she is a very good friend too! (: whenever i feel sad or i have any kind of problem, she wil always be there for me when i need her NO MATTER WHAT! haha, although sometime she looks fierce to others, but to her close friends, she is really a nice girl........ although she is abit clumsy and rough! anw..... she is good good girl lah! HAHAHA! 8)8)

hope our friendship can be everlasting girl! okay? lets last long with me! hahahaha!

later will be going to rebecca's chalet! before that go and meet val first...........

opps..... i will be late. byebye, readers! ;] ;] ;]

2008-03-27T17:59:00.003+08:00

ytd when i called my mummy

mummy: hello?

me: hi, may i speak to alwena?

mummy: stop being insane, charlene cheong.

hahahaha, i can't wait to see my sister and i hope i can go england during this coming june holiday! awwww...... I CAN'T WAIT MAN. o ya! my sister have a chinese name already.

雪莉 and my chinese name is 莎莉, my second sister is 嘉莉. all got a 莉 one... HAHAHA! i wonder why my mummy loves 莉 so much! :):):)

cheers to this young mother of 4 childern........ HAHAHA.

2008-03-24T16:26:00.006+08:00

my hp is confiscated by the hyss professional, skinnest ,chio-est and the most fashion teacher mdm NISHA,
she is great man! 8) 8) 8) so envious of her nice body please take good care of yourself when mummy isn't there for you kkayz? my baobei hp ;(

2008-03-22T01:00:00.013+08:00

heyo.. today i had a great day with valerie! :D:D:D and we went to orchard again to shop! hahahha............ window shop, although i hate it so much 8) and today i bought famous amous cookies and i was very happy :]

and one very funny incident happened. this guy steven ( the one who scolded xiaxue in the past) approached to us in the street where is orchard....... at fist i didn know he was steven and he asked whether we are interested in modelling and i immediately used my flyer in my hand to cover my face and said "no no no" and then i pulled valerie away. because i knew this kind of thing cannot be trusted, i knew they would ask you to pay for the shoot and wait for the news and then in then end you will waste your money and time. no matter you are pretty or not pretty, if you got the money, whoever also can be a model. LOL..... so stupid

after that went to look for huili and then we happily home! i am so tired now and tml still have to wake up early

^HAHAHAHAH. my fav famous amous cookiessexy yellow us! HAHAHAHAHAHA

valerie's earphone is so powerful :D:D:D hahahahaha! okay...... thats all. i gtg and sleep, i am tired zzz

尝试亲吻尝试拥抱或沟通没有好感再尝试也没有用

2008-03-21T15:43:00.007+08:00

my mix-blood angmoh baby sister came to this world already! on 17 march 2008!

ALWENA ALWENA ALWENA ALWENA! omg! i am a sister of three.

msn with mummy and my baby sister just now! awwwww. the mix blood baby is so beautiful and freaking cute! thank god =)

mummy, thank you very much and i miss you!

not forgetting, alwena.

thanks for coming to this world. you brighten up my life :]

ALWENA<3

2008-03-18T19:53:00.004+08:00

yooooo. i am busy with school life recently. have to mug hard for Nlevel already ;(

will not have much time to blog! and today visit yvonne's house again we studied at her house! had so much fun as well :]

at yvonne house with hyss bball star player and not forgetting. joscelyn chua! hahahaha

with my dearie huipin! taken during POA lesson.

POA=FREE PERIOD. LOL

2008-03-16T01:51:00.016+08:00

hello, readers! i am back after so many days! hahahahaha! this few days kept going out until very late everyday then didn have much time to touch my laptop and now is 1.53am. i just came back from town and i am tired! hahahaha.

okay, today watched "sky of love" with net and val. its a superduper nice, touching and romantic movie! rating is 4/5! and i saw so many ppls crying in the cinema including val! HAHAHAH. then i was keep laughing while so many ppls was crying. the movie ended at 11.50 and we left cine at 12 i missed the last train at 12 plus. grrr.. and i missed the last train........ so i took 14 to clementi and i took cab home. wasted my $9.60 and it broke my heart ;(

this cute boy marcuse, we met him at cineleisure kobayashi and he is damn damn super cute! ;)

i love the movie"sky of love"

hiro is very very very sweet, handsome,cool and charming! awwwwwwww..........

its really a sad story. firstly, their baby died accidentally, after that hiro died because of cancer also.......

can i reply all the tags next time? i am very tired and i wanna sleep! and to charlene FC aka zoey aka dog aka stupid "BUTCH". please stop all these nonsense before i take any action

2008-03-11T18:49:00.014+08:00

rebecca has sent me the photos of today!
hahahaahahahahaha. sorry ah, only upload afew because the other photos i look so freaking stupid, and i was hugging yishi all the way! hahahahaha. so funny zZz

say hello to charlene. says:
lurbe eu
Yishi says:
haha
say hello to charlene. says:
waH lao
say hello to charlene. says:
must say you love me too mah
Yishi says:
lol
Yishi says:
dun want leh
say hello to charlene. says:
why?
say hello to charlene. says:
;(
say hello to charlene. says:
you break my heart
Yishi says:
cause i dun want say
Yishi says:
hahahaa
say hello to charlene. says:
eu break moii heart de worzZz
Yishi says:
hahaha
Yishi says:
aiya
Yishi says:
lurb euu tuuu nehxz

hahahaha, yishi is cute isn't it? ;D

2008-03-11T16:27:00.006+08:00

just came back from sentosa and i am superduper tired and my right eye is in infection again! grrrrr.. ;( really very phek cek lor. i doubt that they all are in jec now but i cannot stay any longer because seriously i cannot take it already. my dumb contact len makes my eyes super dry and feel very very very tired.

today sentosa trip is quite okay but the sun isn't there! omg. today is rainy day and we still go to sentosa. hahahaha. abit ridiculous yah ;D hahahaha. i want to sun-tan! i hate raining day. awwww.. i still haven't started to do my homework, i need someone or something to motivate me! hahahahaha.

the rest of the photos are in rebecca's camera! we took alot alot of photos today and i am so satisfied ;D

god blesses, bye! 8-)

2008-03-09T20:07:00.009+08:00

this post will be super random. hahahaha :D:D:D
^ and i find this picture is kinda funny. look at my baby's face. hahahaha!

and see what this monster has done.... i really laugh until tummy pain when i reach home and i see this

.this post is really very random -.- and tonight i will stay over at xx house!

god blesses! byeeeeeeeeeeeee

2008-03-06T22:18:00.006+08:00

i watch 2 movies today!! "L change the world" and "the eye"

and its like abit insane isn't it? -_- hor? yehbung! after we watched "L change the world" in jp, striaght away rushed down to jec to watch "the eye" we were making so much noise in both jp and jec cinema..... all because of my childish friend yeh yi shi. hahahahaha.... i bet after yishi see this post, she will say " wah lao eh, si sa lei" hahahaha! right? yishi tag me after you see this kkayy? i love you always lah. both movies are nice but "L" is a tiny bit better...... and i love L! he is so cute and funny yah.

hahahaha, okay. my right eye is still very red and i am not going to care about it 8-)

lastly, i love our poa teacher mr ong, he is soooooooooooooooooooo kawaii although i dislike poa so much! hehehehehe ^let me introduce, the crazy fellow name yishi. yishi, lets go and watch more and more movie together next time okay? enjoy watching movie with you nehZxzz 8-)

^yishi look so cool in this pic. HAHAHAHA!

^this is huipin, my best partner in my class

yawnnnnnn, i am very very very very very tired now and i am going to sleep. may everyone in this world have a sweet dream :D:D:D

charlene is a good good girl who will go to bed at 11 every night 8) 8) 8) god bless me and you

2008-03-05T21:12:00.003+08:00

hie, readers 8-)
i am super good recently although i always have to visit the clinic and i've became very good friend with the doctors already. sob, my left eye is in infection now and i also got no ideas what the hell it goes wrong. zZz

and i was very angry today, i got 2 sweet and nice free periods today and i was very happy and i thought that i could take these two period to go lalaland. you know what?! i can't even sleep well when there were a bunch of my classmates(of course they are guy) sitting in front of me, talking so loudly, laughing so loudly as if this classroom isn't a classroom anymore. i tried my very best to sleep hur. you know what again!? they kept on shaking and shaking my table and i was super frustrated abt it hur................ -_- my 2 sweet and nice free periods are ruined by that bunch of idiots. 8-(

now i really really want to sleep but i have to take care of my two monkey little kids. why nowadays kids are all so energetic huh. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2008-03-03T21:17:00.004+08:00

on this coming 10 march 2008,
my baby mix blood sister will be coming to this world! :D:D:D:D

i am down with food poisoning but i am very very very OKAY! 8-)

2008-03-01T23:33:00.013+08:00

today i had a great day with rebecca,angrong,huili,ahyin,gokmin,zoey chua, nanette and xx. we went to bugis then orchard. i am very tired lahhhhhhh. roar 8-O

^nanette look like a monster right!? hahahahahaha :D:D:D

o ya, my breast are small but i am still very sexy 8-)

so shut up ! HAHAHA

tag replies

to peiwen: ya..... "nice" and i almost fell aslepp -_- maybe those type of movie doesn't suit me. hah

to huili: iiie misshhh yew sho muchhiiee too 8-) muackzZxx

to nanqiang: heyooooooo! tag always okay? long time never see you har. hahahaha

to niko: hey, i miss you godly much now lor ;(

to xiaoxuan: hahahaha! just saw you! and tml will be seeing you also. zZZz

to rebecca: i loveeeeeee youuuuuuuuuuuu too! my dearest girl 8-)

to serene: okay! and you're lovely too :):):)

to yishi: ya. i love you to death and i don let that chao ah gua to bully you! yishi. love you so much. muack

to serli: hi, cutie :)

to peishan: hai.... don laugh at dead monkey, thats very bad.

congratulation to zoey chua, from monkey upgrade to spaceman. *claps

2008-02-29T23:37:00.011+08:00

aiya, just came back from work with zoey chua, i am very very very very tired and sleepy now but.......... i wanna blog before i go to bed :):):)

we bought many food to office and eat, like famous amous cookies(my favourite!!!),sushi,bubble tea and sweet....... and after edison scandal photos news, i almost buy newspaper everyday. hahahaha........ happily reached office at 8 when we were supposed to reach at 7 :P chatting, reading and eating as usual. see! i am super nice right, accomapany zoey chua to work.

^hahahaha, not only chatting and eating or playing

you can laugh at me if you want but seriosuly i really heart yellow nail polish! HAHAHA.

oya..... zoey chua is super irritating and i feel like slapping her yah. the things she did to piss me off 1)put a pad into my favourite famous amous cookies 2)gob my favourite famous amous cookies to eat when i was away. 3) use my hp to send "my breast got air" to the guys in my hp contact list 4)divert her call to hazwan when i call 5) bully my dearest yishi and many many will be coming up! shit you zoey chua

and i miss volleyball and basketball sooooooooooooo much ;( sigh.......... school doesn't look like a school when there is no basketball court

2008-02-28T23:04:00.008+08:00

hellooooooooo~ i am back! awwwww.. i am busying playing and playing recently, NON STOP playing -.- and i really neglect studies too much and will you study? charlene will you? i am always asking myself this question but omg. how to focus on studies when i got so many naughty friends are arounf me!? ;P hehehehe

just came back from xx's house. aiya.................. very sian lah! and i feel like talking crap now! ya.... i got many of my friends who are out of love recently and i really really do feel heartache for them ;( and cheer up okay? you and you and YOU! you know who you are huh.

yishi is love ;)

mummy, i am sorry i am sorry i am sorry i am sorry!

2008-02-24T21:35:00.002+08:00

say hello to charlene. says:
LOL. got any funny web intro?
say hello to charlene. says:
very sian sia
-superduper! says:
www.postsecret.com
say hello to charlene. says:
the breast look like urs leh !!!!!!!
-superduper! says:
-_-
-superduper! says:
Losl!
-superduper! says:
lols
say hello to charlene. says:
the right hand side one
-superduper! says:
DIam la

-superduper! = zoey chua la ma

2008-02-24T21:00:00.002+08:00

today i am very very very very very angry,
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so i take half of my pay to go shopping! roarrrrrrrrr 8-O

2008-02-23T14:23:00.011+08:00

last day in ERA yesterday, only me and ahma were at there ^ see ! ahma is so hard working
grr... very very very bored

2008-02-22T16:02:00.004+08:00

i think among all the photos, only this two are nice. hahahaha. see! we are such a "professional" telemarketer hor....... had so much fun in taking picture during work.
^hahahaha. look at angrong please.
tml is flag day and hmmmm...... i will only go if i can wake up, wake up so early in the morning is really a torture to me! and i dono why i always feel so sleepy recently and i cannot focus on lesson. and i have never gone for shopping for such a long period of time! awwww. money money please come to me please come to me! sometime i will think like this, i can go for plastic surgery then change myself from my head to toe, change to a person that everyone cannot regconize, then change my name in IC also, then go to olther country and start a new life........ where nobody knows you. hahahahha.. zzz stupid silly dream

在湿地的水面那伤心乱成一片

2008-02-21T14:32:00.006+08:00

awwww. i am super tired......

work during school days is really damn tiring nia!

and because i didn go to school for 2 weeks in the past, i totally cannot catch up the lesson... and it is really damn stressed ;(

^ i look so damn pale because zoey chua is beiside me

^ ah meng chua. rest in peace. a-man

2008-02-18T21:04:00.006+08:00

^ its sooooooooooo beautiful and makes me wanna cry :D :D :D^ see! i am so devoted to melody and i love melody since i was very young :D :D huh? why i like melody but not hello kitty? hahahaha. its because, i hate hello kitty. HAH

random photos

^ jia sin and me.

sometime if a person who has alot of ex-bf or ex-gf will not give people a good impression, or makes people think that your record isn't very good.

2008-02-17T23:31:00.030+08:00

just now went to rebecca house and bai nian...... had a very great day today! 8-) and yah, i love rebecca........ and her parents are so damn nice and friendly. and so many yummy food to eat. and today is rebecca' s mummy birthday, so i am here to wish her a happy birthday. hohoho.

^mervin aka rebecca's brother aka my crap buddy. and he says i am his best female friend leh! awwwww 8-D^don mess with me horrrrr, you see my buddy! so fierce nehZxzz :D

^ look at angrong! looks like she is so unwilling to take pic with us yah^ rebecca! lot of loves to her!

^huili look so pretty in this pic right? okay. in case you will be jealous, i love you too! huili 8-D

^chong gokmin! :D:D

i am praying and praying and praying, but is god really listening? sometime i will be wondering, is god really exist? why are my parents christian? and why do they believe in god? they say that we must forgive and forget, but why whenever i did sth wrong, they will scold me like hell or even punish me? i thought god says we must forgive and forget. bullshit lahhhhhh.

thank you for your present, but i have nothing to say and nothing to do, i am sorry.

2008-02-17T12:49:00.003+08:00

ytd i had a great day with them ;)i am praying very hard that huili can grow taller. hahahaha.

2008-02-15T23:48:00.022+08:00

heyooooooooooo. i got alot of photos to upload, i got nth much to say lahhhh. have been having fun in ERA recently and yah, hahahaha...... huili, zoey and angrong rock my life in ERA :D:D:D^hahaha. see! SHE umbrella. duhhhhhh^pleaseeeee. PLEASE look at how huili pretend zoey chua. wahhahaha^some people is just too childish to do this. hor? MISS chua^dearest yehmoss

^hahahahaha, let me intro this monkey to you guys, her name is zoey. surname is chua. sorry if she is too ugly...............

hahahahahahaha! i know you guys miss me :D

i admire gillian's courage and well, i will still support her.

2008-02-14T21:37:00.001+08:00

charlene is a happy girl becuase you and you and you make her so happy :D:D:D

HAPPY VALENTINE DAY

2008-02-12T22:03:00.000+08:00

ALL MY SAVINGS AND HARD MONEY ARE GONEeeeeeee
now my bank acc is left with 23.50 dollars.

all thanks to........... _l_ _l_ _l_
8-(

2008-02-10T20:59:00.000+08:00

hahahahahahahahaha.
hahahahahahahahaha.
hahahahahahahahaha.
hahahahahahahahaha.

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

some freak in msn really makes me laugh like hell sia
WAHAHAHAHAHA
okay.... i shall stop it. zzz

and berlin is very shaui+cute+cool :]

2008-02-09T06:18:00.000+08:00

okayyyyyy. happy cny to everyone.

and ytd finally went out with my auntie they all, and we went to sg river............

^ he's sooooooooooooo cute isn't it 8-)

2008-02-07T22:01:00.000+08:00

everyone is celebrating cny, and i am now at home rotting -_-

i realise that my laptop has became my best friend huh.

i really rot at home today, and this is the evidence....... awww, now waiting for some IDIOT to off his work, and buy me dinner and medicine, grrrrr

and i am very bored now zzz

2008-02-07T00:40:00.000+08:00

别人都说我很坚强,只有你劝我别逞强

i love you, because you understand me.

2008-02-05T21:37:00.000+08:00

I AM SORRY. really sorry

although you never say you love me , i know you do. thanks for always being by my side, and stop denying that you do not love me
but i am sorry, i don think im ready for the next relationship yet
if you think i am talking about you, yes, its you

2008-02-02T21:47:00.000+08:00

okayyyy, i am very tired. seriously i am very tired of all these. let me get out of it....... and i feel super disgusted when i see him okay. -_-
so i will pretend that nth had happened after that. and im going to be 18 and im a bigbig girl already okay..... so i should stop all these nonsenses and be a matured and goodgood girl.
please, when i go back to school next week, don ask me anything. please and thank you very much.

i will do something very scary soon and i don think i will forgive myself for e rest of my life.
god blesses me.
its time to be a nice nice girl

2008-02-01T23:17:00.001+08:00

rebecca is my sweetest and nice-est girl and she will be always be there for me when i need her. i love you so much yah girl......

2008-01-27T19:47:00.000+08:00

baby,can you hear me?

2008-01-25T20:27:00.000+08:00

don't be sad anymore
holding my hands tightly caressing my wound
it embraces me warmly
too hurts for my legs to walk
eyes so blurry with tears
before love never meant for me, i will keep on smiling
dear moments with you, buried deep in my heart
like those stars embroidered in my eyes

i will love you forever

please guess who mail this to me.
its a song lyrics lor. don think i dono nia zzz

2008-01-25T14:48:00.000+08:00

hello, okay. i haven't died. and i haven't been in school for 6 days and don ask me why, i don want to say :)

and from today onwards i will not blog much abt my personal thingy in my blog because i doubt that my teacher had found out my bloggy url. LOL

okay, i don want to say anything now, so lets post some random photos

谢谢你如此温柔点着笑容的灯火只温暖而不打扰我的寒冬还没决定往哪走才所以不能答应你陪我怕你会变成我

2008-01-22T14:07:00.000+08:00

I PROMISE I WILL BE STRONG AND OVERCOME THE PROBLEM BRAVELY.
AND I WON'T GIVE UP,AND I WON'T BREAK DOWN
I PROMISE

2008-01-21T23:22:00.000+08:00

i wanna be alone,
just leave me alone can.
will you?
you know who i am talking abt.

2008-01-20T19:47:00.000+08:00

hello. omg. i am very very very touched now because my stubborn stupid laptop is FINALLY okay. T-T and it costs 60 dollars to repair it, using my OWN money to repair okay? omg. i am broke now........ and recently busy working in ERA with zoey. and i swear this work is superduper slack. and i had skipped many school days last week but no more next time, i swear :)

^ let me introduce, this is jenny :) i spend 200 dollars to buy e pearl lotion. all thanks to her eh
omg, cny is coming and it is totally meaningless to me.

awwwwwww....

boy : if there is a chance for us to be together, would you?

girl : hmm.. then how about your girlfriend?

boy : don't care about her lah, i want to break up with her long ago liaooooo~

this guy is really fucked.

baby, i regret to do that, im sorry

i am really really sorry

forgive me

2008-01-17T20:53:00.000+08:00

hellooooooo. currently using my office's computer to update
work is sooooooo boring without zoey.
im lonely now :(

and i bought a pearl lotion cost 200 dollars.
awwwwwww. heart pain :/

2008-01-16T12:40:00.000+08:00

first day of work ytd with zoey chua (telemarketing)
i didn feel like i was working, i felt like i was having fun and slacking at there. everytime i go out with zoey, she will always do sth to make me feel super paiseh and i jus wanna pretent that i dono her. i think you should do some reflection abt that, hahahaha :D

after work, went to pasar malam den reached home around 11 plus, going to 12.
okay, i woke up quite early this morning. but i super don feel like going to sch, so after i m ready to go out at 7.20, i decide not to go, so i go back to my bed and sleep again zzzz hahahahaha :P
okayy, last monday i didn go to school also, hahaha, well. same reason as i've just told you. i seriously hate school now and i dono why, i cannot even focus in class and im always so sleepy when having lesson.

later evening, work again... ahmmmm, no. having fun again. hahahaha
cya cute readers :)

如果说有什么让我难过的,那就是当我看到你的时候,我假装不认识你,你假装不认识我.

2008-01-14T16:55:00.000+08:00

whoever hack my msn account,
_l_ you deserve this. shittttt you

2008-01-12T21:57:00.000+08:00

hellooooooo im now at xiaoxuan's house with huipin,nanett,angrong and jy.

just now went to TOWN again ( i almost go there every week recently and im quite sick and tired already) with maisie and peiwen. we went to cineleisure and heeren. awwwwww.. after going to town, i went to meet nanett they all alone. hahahaha.

tml will be going je library to do some studies. hopefully i will study. although i don think i can pass my nlevel but its okayyyyyyyy

hopefully monday go to school, my hairstyle can pass ehhhhhh.

i really really really extremely superduper very very miss the past, won't you? :)

2008-01-11T14:56:00.000+08:00

omg, i am getting very tired of school life D:

awwwww.....

2008-01-08T21:24:00.000+08:00

awww.. i got a new fringe and it is..... hmmm... ;/

today i was so moodless for the entire day. cannot focus in class, and i don even know whats wrong with myself.........

im pissed when...

1) hp or mp3 no batt when going out.

2) ppl who force me to do thing i dislike

3) ppl keep staring at me

omg, i think im going to kiss goodbye to hyss already. totally PISSED today. omg.

last saturday went to town with peiwen,maisie and zoey(hmm, you can call her farmer chua -.-)

we went there is to take photo only and after maisie and peiwen left. me and farmer chua(hahahaha, i wanna laugh when i call her farmer chua) walked walked and we saw sydris. omg. she's super talkative but nice chatting with her man. when you're with her, you won't feel bored.. because she can find many topics to chat. nice day with her! (:

^ my irritating fringe and please do not cut hair in two way -.- laugh my ass out

i only think of you, and its breaking my heart.

today TOTALLY sucks. sigh :/

2008-01-04T17:15:00.000+08:00

hello. my blog is alive. weee
okayyy, as i've told you. my laptop is down and i can't even surf internet at all D:
im doing fine recently and school has started, school is still alright :)
hahahha, still miss niko and hk very much. awwwww

^ i swear this isn't my school bag -_-

see! school life can be so fun right? hahaha :D

okayyy. im suffering from tummyache. all thanks to bioslim tea. but i won't give up -____-!! bcos i wanna kiss goodbye to my fats.

2007-12-29T20:50:00.000+08:00

hellooooooooo :D hope ppl don forget abt me. im so sorry of my lack of updates recently bcos my laptop is down again.. i am doing veryveryveryveryvery fine and merry belated xmas ;DDD
yes, i m changed alot, in case i will shock you in the street, hahaha. look at me carefully now. wahahaha.
fangyingfangyingfangying :DDD
nice dinner with kenneth and thanks for your present :DDDD and nice to meet you too ryan. okayyyyy.. when will be our next update... hmmmmmm

2007-12-23T02:18:00.000+08:00

o ya, just permed my stubborn hairs, ahumph. DIY one leh ,it means i perm it myself. >>>niko niko don't cry don't cry ;'(

you sad i sad, you frown i frown. i will be back soon, and i promise.

sorry, i ain't feeling well recently and i really dono how to cheer you up. tml i have to leave. awwwwwww... ;(

hong kong, i will be back soonnnnnnnn

其实你没有那么爱他

真的不需要那么想他

编织过的梦想, 自己也可以抵达

谁说一定要有他

其实你没有那么爱他

没有深陷到不可自拔

认清了真心话,你就放得下

这世界那么大幸福总会在某个地方

niko, cheer up

2007-12-22T01:19:00.000+08:00

i am okay but my health isn't really good recently.

i am getting more and more zi lian -.- forgive me please, because i really got nth better to do here, lol

我不相信缘分,我认为幸福是要自己争取的

baby,mummy loves you

2007-12-20T15:07:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gqOfVASqXVI
please go and watch. i really can't stop laughing until my tummy hurtsssssssss ;( hahahaha

2007-12-18T21:25:00.000+08:00

5 more days to go :)

^ THANKS junjun, niko and janice for the such a nicezzzzzzz watch worxzZ, lurbe eu manzZZ :)

2007-12-17T23:31:00.000+08:00

junjun , me, niko and janice

nik: 如果中秋节太多云,看不到月亮,那不是很meaningless?
junjun: 不用紧,如果真的没月亮,看charlene的脸就okay了
niko&janice: hahahahahahahaha (laughing very hard by his lame joke)
me: grrrrrr #$%^&^$%^&* -_-!!!

i got no ideas why niko you will suddenly ask this stupid question.

2007-12-17T00:55:00.000+08:00

my eyes are much better, thanks for the concern :D

see my right eye, still very swollen.

and vedio call with my cousin and wah lao eh, he is damn funny can. and i can laughing non stop when i was talking to him, he can really make me laugh my head off lo. wtf. hahahaha.

and he keep smoking and smoking, -__- i never forget the childhood, you always bullied me and made me cry! and i WILL take revenge one day, @#$%^&

2007-12-16T03:22:00.000+08:00

i am so happy because someone loves me and i love him too,
thanks god ;)

2007-12-15T13:54:00.000+08:00

cam whore with him is really fun eh, look at all his expresions then you know, hahahaha.

^ isn't this pictur very funny? haha, okay. ignore my double-chin -.-

have been busying shopping with niko and she is really a crazy shopping queen eh, ya, we hate window shopping ya, and baby, i think our diet plan all ruined nia.

相恋和失恋,如果说都需要练习,一次学会两种,也算好事情 :)

2007-12-11T23:31:00.000+08:00

okay, finally got some photos to upload, but my eyes are still very swollen lor ;(^ i look like a malay right? due to my purple and red eyes^ my brother likes to act cool -.- irritating face

^ hahahahahahaha.

okay, make commitment, keep it. if you think you cannot keep the commitment, then don make it. what for make so many commitments and then break them all. lying isit your hobby? don think all girls will die on your hands, because i was so blind in the past.

you are enjoying now,but you don even know you have left me a big problem.

2007-12-11T16:54:00.000+08:00

whoever want to use " i want to be single" or "you are too good for me, i am not fit to be with you" this kind of reason to break off with you. don't ever believe in that
.
.
.
.
.
so crappy isn't it? -.-

2007-12-10T12:10:00.000+08:00

tag replies
to huimin: haha, ya. long time never see you. take great care alright :)
to keith: hi
to ryan : thanks for tagging and hi :D
to nanqiang: hehe. ya. all credit to you ;)
to zhao xiang: tc too
to ah xiang: fuck off
to zhao xiang: okay, thanks :D
to keith: ya, haha.
to jun : =P dumbass
to maisie: ya. haha
to zoeyy: huh?
to junhong: har lo =)
to kenneth: haha! alright. you too and thanks for tagging,and how did you manage to find my blog?

hello, no photos to upload because my eyes are soooooo damn superduper swollen now and i can't even go out! well, i was very bored these few days and i've rotted atv home for 3 days already! as i said, i rot at home and never go out. so i got nth to say abt my life now, that mean i got nth to blog abt my life. awwwwww

okay, let's talk abt what i have to do when i go back to singapore
1. gyming! that is a must to do that.
2. meet up with huili they all!
3. meet up with si hao, terrance and then so and so etc. si hao, i know you are looking forward to see me :) we never see each other for one year already!
4. dinner with kenneth or maybe ryan? haha, since you have tagged me, don say i never blog abt you, kenneth is my old friend and let me think how we get to know each other, hmmmm. 123445 years ago already, i can't rmb, o. forget abt it. haha
5. meet up with kaz and who and who, hahaha. my old friends too, i can't forget those days! and those neoprint although i have lost them , haha.
6. go out with rebecca! awww, meet her loads man.
7. if can, i wanna meet fangying D:
to be continued, hahaha.

2007-12-07T02:03:00.000+08:00

hahaha, currently in macau and we had a fun day today eh. bought many many things and ahumph, i am satisfied :D hahahaha. ^ you guess how much ? with this two yummylicious ice cream. omg,only sell 5 china dollars and it mean 1 sg dollar. superduper cheap , see niko's dumb face. hahahhaha.^and see this taiwan hotdog. 3 china dollars for 2 hotdogs. which mean 60 cents in sg money can buy 2 taiwan hotdog, omg, i faint. hahaha^ dirty street in china^ my favourite hong dou gao. it is super delicious and i love it laaaaaaa :D

^ and finally, we reach macau! :D

yawnnnn, i am so shagged now and i wanna sleep. see you tml! ;) people, your tag are appreciated :D shall reply tag tml bcos i am very sleepy, night

2007-12-05T23:21:00.000+08:00

hellloooooooooo, have been hanging out with niko these few days. and we will be going to china tml . china~ china~ china! hoorayyyyy xDDDDDD we are tmd excited now lor okay. and niko the boy killer always attract so many guys and please don wear until so sexy tml hor, hahahaha.

don hug me so tight ar boy #$%^&*(

charlene is missing all of you! wahahahaha

2007-12-05T00:16:00.000+08:00

tag replies
to rebecca: i miss you very much too!
to fang: ya, i am smiling :) and i smile happily! darling i miss you!
to huiqi: haha, okay. tc
to zhao xiang: haha, okay. surprised and thanks for tagging :)
to val val: thanks for tagging and long time no see! tag more often :)
to keith: okay, i shall forgive you, if not ppl think im black hearted! haha.
to keith: we exchange gift? i love to exchange gift with friends where christmas comes!
to nanqiang: ya! i am pig, but i am the slim pig! wahahaha -.-
to niko: ya, so i smile, you smile and let's be happy and no worries. hahahahaha
to :) : thanks , ya. credit to someone lor.
to keith: errr hmmm. you get sth wrong, mr tan.
to albert: hey, albert! i am super appreciate your tag okay! so tag more nia. lol
to maisie: thanks girl, mss you too . hehe
to jiaxin: i am alright and my life is soooooo great now, thanks for caring.
to rebecca: i am fine! awwww. i miss you so much girl ;(
to niko: i am so sorry sweetheart! next time alright. awww. cannot celebrate with you, i don feel good also. i will cry, serious i will really cry ;(
to niko: i look pale? hahahaha. maybe nowaday i very late den slp , den not enuf slp or what ba. hehe. don worry

and i hate ppl who purposely don reply sms or ans call, or their reply is only "lol" , "k" , "ya" or "oic" etc. damn irritating right? might as well not to reply and waste the 5 cents lor. only dumb ppls will do such thing nia. zzz

2007-12-04T02:40:00.001+08:00

i am superduper happy now bcos xmas is coming! and so many ppls want to celebrate xmas with me! im blessed. hoooorayyy :D

2007-12-03T21:57:00.000+08:00

i am doing really fine recently :D

and i have been enjoying every single day here. the weather is still cold . hahaha. and i almost sleep until very late den wake up. the weather is so freaking nice to sleep huh. hahaha

have beeb hanging out with niko everyday, she is having relationship prob now and i am so heartache to see her like that, always frown and very hard to see her smile D:

come on baby, need not to be so depressed over a dumb guy right. he is just another jerk in the world. okay, cheer up alright? sweetheart. really sad to see you like that ;(

i know you all miss me. wahahahaha ;D

2007-12-01T15:38:00.000+08:00

我可以忍受你不够爱我
我可以忍受你有别的梦
就算是编谎话哄我, 至少你还在乎我的感受
我可以忍受眼神的空洞
我可以忍受你时间不够用
却不能忍受, 作了那么多, 是她拥有我该得到的温柔
是她拥有我没看过的笑容

no.no.no
不要说对不起
原来你要的不是我
不要说谢谢你
什么你永远在我心中
can u tell me why
这样的我你也曾爱过不是吗?

2007-12-01T01:16:00.000+08:00

changed my blogskin and it looks, hmmmm. so bright and not like my previous one. haha.

i feel loved, bcos when i am here, here refers to my hometown of cos, and i can feel the family warm here, i used to kick away my blanket when i slp, so always get flu and fall sick, i feel really warm when my father realise that when i kick away my blanket, he actually every night wakes up in the middle of night and helps me to cover back. awwwww. isn't my father sweet enuf to be my father? haha. and got ppl care for you, worried for you, the unconditional love is from family, and not from bf or whatever shit.

someone keep saying that i never reply tag, okay.

to nanqiang: okay, sure! when i go back, i sure chiong gym de. lol

to zoey : same to you

to keith: haha, dono what to blog xD

to passerby: eh, thanks.

to niko: BABY! :D

to jun: you like only tag me once in million years. tag me more lah =)

to maisie: hah, okay, thank

to nanqiang: =p

to jack: haha, okay! THANKS =D

to keith: i want to be slimmer =p

to zoey: haha

to zoey: i never lie

to stranger: haha, okay. and who are you?

to albert: haha. buy wat?

vedio call with dino.

look so dumb lah, blackie hahahaha, funny zzz

i hate guys who are sweettalking, only know how to say but no action. those guys are totally useless and i fucking feel like killng those guys who play with girls's feeling, these people should be get out of this world.

2007-11-30T00:44:00.000+08:00

another freak wants me to blog abt her. her surname call chua, name is zoey.
she wants me to tell you all that she is very pretty , hot and sexy. and she is now interested in modelling, keep on asking me abt model thingy in msn. please kindly support her because i m not there for her, thanks ppl.

2007-11-29T23:28:00.000+08:00

hello, see! im blogging now and i almost update my blog everyday! can see how bored i am here right. nth to do then keep on blogging. haha, well. today went out with baby niko again, and we saw a gay couple kissing in the street! and the two of them are not bad looking, they are handsome! so wasted right =/ but they are abit too daring. can kissing in the public .. duh

awww.. how am i going to slim down myself when there is no perspiring, no exercising and keep on eating! omg. i sure will grow fat alot one! roar. =O my 47 kg plan is ruining lahhhhhhh.

^ i found this pic in my brother's comp. and it was taken during this year june holiday, my face was damn fat when during june.^ but now, can see the difference anot!? my face become smaller and not so fat as before hor! isn't my hair very long now? hehe, but i want it to be longer leh ;P

okay, nanqiang is complaining that i didn blog much abt him, haha, but i don care :P

2007-11-29T00:39:00.000+08:00

i love niko! and i mean it! today finally saw her. awwww.. give her a very tight hug when i saw her, i was so excited to see her :D

we walked around hk street and bought alot of things, i love shopping and i really really love it :)@#$%^#$$%

i miss hk and i really really miss hk when i was in singapore. too many unhappiness at there, so i feel that no matter what, hometown is the best :)

and the weather is so so so damn cold can. i feel like staying in the blanket and don come out until the day i go back to singapore.

okay, nanqiang wants me to blog abt him. haha, he is the best. -_- hahahaha, im mean.

i miss everything in singapore although i love here =P

我闭上眼 ,想起当时你美丽的承诺 ,你说你会把你整个心都交给我 ,然而到后来我什么都没有, 想起当时你怀里的颤抖,似乎那么害怕失去我, 然而到后来我什么都没有

2007-11-27T22:59:00.000+08:00

hello, i should blog properly and let you guys know how was i in these few days.

okay, well. i am now in hk, my hometown. i sit aeroplane alone to go back and as ive mentioned during this year june hol trip, i hate sitting aeroplane and in the aeroplane, the minutes really feel like days. hahaha, okay. now is winter here and i dislike it, D: because it is very cold, really feel like staying in e fridge. and i dislike dry weather.

i like so long never upload any picture and blog become very not interesting and attractive anymore. haha, well. i got ton of photo to upload but my stupid dumb phone spoiled. only can upload afew. =)

budget airport and it really looks budget lol

im alone but it is very okay =)babies, i know you all miss me ;D
^ not forgotten, thanks for "someone" who made this for me, the effort is appreciated by me! :D
thanks

don't doubt anything, i am really strong this time, but something time just can't erase.

you was never be there for me when i was crying, you still asked me to go away. haha,i won't forget that.

and may i meet the right one earlier?

2007-11-27T01:15:00.000+08:00

i hate you
nothing can describe how much i hate you

2007-11-25T17:51:00.000+08:00

没什么好怪的
我已经没力气再继续拉扯了, 没有谁非爱谁不可,就算变心了也非罪不可赦
就算他消失此刻告诉我能得回什么呢, 责怪他又凭什么呢

她只是无意闯入的,
我们之间的困难在她出现之前就有了,
虽然我愤怒但是我明白的,把过错让她去背着那是不对的...

我去将失去活成一种获得

2007-11-25T17:27:00.000+08:00

LOVE is devotion based on commitment and unselfish concern for one another. it freely accepts another in loyalty and seeks his or her good.

LUST is an intense sexual urge or appetite, an overwhelming desire, a physical impulse

love wait. lust wants
love can't wait to give what is true and honourable. lust can't wait to take.
love mends. lust hurts. love is secure. lust is selfish.
lust ends. love lasts.

2007-11-23T21:41:00.000+08:00

roar. i am sooooooooo shagged now! but i still want to blog before i go to bed, my sweet and fragrant bed. hahahaha. whatever. -_-

okay, today i went to gym with zoey, that dino girl. loctaed at jurong east swimming complex, i was like never go for gym after million years?! hahaha. train and train, sweat and sweat! must really buck up and must go for gym more often already, actually i enjoy going to gym, because i can release my stress there and also can cut down my fats :D i enjoy sweating nia. i don't know why, haha. furthermore i want to make myself tired then i can slp well at night because i have not been sleeping very well for these few days. D:
stayed there for almost 2 hrs and i walked back home alone.

after so many things had happened to me, i realise that actually i am really slim down alot because of that, i can't believe my weight now is only 50 kg and with my height 165cm, hey hey hey, i am not fat at all and stop saying i am fat lar, dumb ass-s 8)
and i rmb the last time i measure my weight is abt few weeks ago and my weight was 54 kg, now become 50 kg in only few days time. unbelievable man. now i only eat no kcal food, and sometime i will skip my dinner or only eat fruit. sooner i can kiss good bye to 50 kg and say hi to 47 kg! i know i can do it, give me one month :)

charlene, no point clinging on the past, move on!
afterall, i am not so weak as you think.

2007-11-22T18:00:00.000+08:00

a million thanks to nanqiang and rebecca for making me happy and trying to cheer me up today, efforts are appreciated :D

i don't blame, i don't hate and i forgive =)

2007-11-21T15:59:00.000+08:00

thanks for your concern, but ppl don get the wrong idea, i am okay now.

depressd over a people who doesn't love you,who doesn't care for you, who likes to hurt you is really silly. you feel so sad here, you can't slp you can't eat you can't focus on anything but while he is so happily playing his game or eating, and sleeping tightly. so what for still crying and feeling so depressed over him. honestly i am not saying i am a very strong ppl here or whatever, because i know it's time for me to wake up. it's time to wake up from my silly dumb dream, it's time to know who you should love and who you should not.

if he loves you, he will not hurt you.
if he loves you, he will wait.
if he loves you, he will sacrifice himself for you.
if he loves you,he will protect you.
if he loves you, he won't force you to do thing you dislike.
if he loves you, he will also feel sad when you are feeling sad.
if he loves you, he won't lie to you.
if he loves you, he won't give stupid excuses to leave you.
if he loves you, he will not break promise.
if he loves you, HE WILL GIVE YOU HAPPINESS.

so wake up, he doesn't love you.
or should i say, he never love you?
haha, whatever.

2007-11-19T12:03:00.001+08:00

omg, let me recall every single moment with you.

i remenber the first time i saw you.. hmm, when i was sec 2 and ya, i.. hmm, no we(zoey and gangs) met you in library, you was sleeping and we were at there playing. no matter how loud we were, you still can sleep. that time i already got a bf. so i was not really impressed by you. until sec 3, you did. but you already got a gf, so i didn really put in too much in you. after i knew the news of you and your gf break off.. i was so happy can. i think of many ways to know you, like add you in friendster then wrote for you comments, ask you to cheer up all that.... then add you in msn. after that i want to make it further, i asked ppl for your number, and i msg you. i was so happy when i received your first sms...... but that night you were very cold to me. you said you was busying with your lion dance, that was why you cannot sms with me, still asked me to take care blah blah blah. then i felt so down.... i thought after that night, you will never contact me again. but next day, you did. i still rmb your sms is "very bored le" . omg. i was so fucking delighted to recieve you sms can. until i could jump around and smile like an stupid idiot. that night we did some random chat and after that night, you only will sms me once awhile. i didn know how you get to know that i like you that time.... you told my friend that me and you were impossible and hmmm... when i intended to give up on you. you smsed me in the middle of the night and you confessed to me, its on 15 may 1007. 11 plus like that. lol. i still rmb the sms was abt " what if i jio u hw?" i was sleeping when you send this sms to me.... when i woke up and checked my phone, i was very shocked and surprised. i tot you was joking. and when you said you was not, i can't believe it. until the next day, you smsed me in the afternoon which you seldom did that because you often sms me at night. i started to trust you and love you more and more. i love you from the bottom of my heart and i believe you did too. we talked on the phone every nightd snd before we want to hold off, you used to force me to say i love you. you love me like how much i love you. you said you want to start a beautiful story with me and never end it. rmb? you said you will never leave me, rmb? you said i am very very important to you, rmb? i give my heart to you on 8june2007 and we loved each other very very much. rmb when i was in hk, you said you miss me badly and you was always online because of me, waiting for me to online. when i came back from hk, you was so shy when you saw me. and after we got together for a month, we still hadn't even hold hand or hug.... because you was so shy, myself as well. the firt time we held hand the first time we kissed the first time we hugged. still rmb bus 99? omg. whenever i take 99 now, i would always feel the pain. rmb the first time you scolded me because i throw my stupid bossy missy temper to you, and the first time i cried for you, until my eyes was so swollen in the next morning. and you apologised to me, said you love me and couldn't live without me. you said sorry sorry and asked me to forgive you. baby, how would i bear to leave you because of that? i love calling you baby. and the first time i went to your house. you asked me what should you call me, dear? i said nope. laopo? i answered nope. honey? i shaked my head. until you said niang zi? and i happily gave you a smile and said yes, you can call me niang zi. you used to hug me very tight whenever i was beside you.
then we went to vivo for your birthday, den we watched simpson. then i bought you a key chain. then we went to heeren. cineleisure. jec. i still rmb when we were watching"secret" you didn understand what was the story talking abt, i slowly explained to you while we were watching. then we watched " rush hour3" and so and so. the first time i baked cookies for you, i felt so loved when you ate my cookies and you said its very nice although you didn manage to finish them.. until our third month, you started to change, and our relationship almost went down because i thought of giving you up because i was very tired already..... then i cried and cried. i felt so heartbroken when you agreed the break up and didn do anything to salvage. i cried until the whole of my face was full of tears, you was heartache to see me cry, so you asked me to go back to you. until our forth month, our relationship came out problem again, and you wanted to leave. no matter how i cried and what i said, you still left me. i was so heartbroken and we were apart for 10 days. after that horrible 10 days, you smsed me and asked me to go back to you. baby, you know no matter what you did, i will still love you. we ended our story at 17nov2007. this time was true..... no more going back or you coming back.
the first time we went out,
the first time we hold hands,
the first time i cried for you,
the first time we kissed,
the first time we hugged,
the first time we loved each other so much until i can give myself to you.

and i love shop things for you, buy clothes for you. buy cutie stuff for you. and pinch your face. i love pampering with you. although i am older, but i felt like i am your little baby. and hope you can adore me more and more.

still rmb when i really made a decision and wanted to leave you in our 5th month, you asked me not to leave, and i went to your house in the middle of night, you held my hand very tight, you hugged me very tight, and asked me not to leave you. you said you do really love me and you need me. i trusted you... because i love you so much too. but you lied to me again. and you didn love me anymore..... you said you need me, its all fake.

this is the first time i bake cookies. i felt loved and i felt that i am a wife making food for her husband. baby, you know how i felt when i saw you eating my cookies?

when were in second month, i was so damn fat and ugly. but you still loved me, thanks baby.

and this is you holding my spongebob wallet. you know what? i am still using it.

this is in our fifth month, and you was wearing my shirt which i bought for you.

i really want to let go of you this time. because im not your niangzi anymore. our happy moment is too short

i will remenber you always. sean

2007-11-18T15:46:00.000+08:00

我关了手机
用力地深呼吸
告诉我自己
没有什么了不起
就当我和你演一出爱情戏
流一点眼泪没关系
也许是我太年轻
不懂你要的关系
并不只是一对一才会伤害自己
爱情过了保险期就像玩腻的游戏
不想再要一对一开始没有耐心
原来这才是真的你无法掌握自己的心
偶尔花言巧语偶尔又选择逃避自做聪明
原来这才是真的你
习惯演戏随时在磨练演技
忘了什么叫做珍惜
你想找谁合演对手戏
这是你的权利就让你自己决定
虽然泪水淹没了眼睛
我却轻吻让心痛一个
彻底决定就现在喊停
不再受委屈

2007-11-18T07:01:00.000+08:00

game is over and your love will not be back,
thanks for the 6 months you gave, although you always upset me and make me cry but i know you did love me

we did many things together and the memories will be forever kept in my heart.

finally it came to the end and we have to say goodbye. i really do love you but maybe we got nio fate or whatever. we couldn't get along well and you've cheated me for too many times, you've hurt me for countless times. as i am blogging now, my face is full of tears but nvm, it will dry soon and i know i will not cry for you anymore after this. life is like that, relationship is like that, there is always up and down. tolerance, caring, loving and understanding are the very important factors in every relationship.

i will not ask for help because this is what i chosem,

i got no rights to ask for any help either i got no face to ask for any help already, i have to end it all and walk out of it by myself. from today onwards, i have to do everything myself, noone can help me only myself. i know life is still not so darkness afterall

okay! at least i got a happy ending :]

friends please bless me!

2007-11-14T12:09:00.000+08:00

ytd went to watch "stardust"
nice, funny, exciting and touching movie!

*the star won't shine with a broken heart.